Forgive Infidelities

We forgive people for our own benefit. We put things behind us, declare at least to ourselves that we no longer expect to be repaid for the debt, and allow ourselves to move on. We can forgive people that are passed away or with whom we no longer have any possible contact. We don't have to tell them that we have forgiven them.

Reconciliation is beyond that and involved some reestablishment of trust. That's generally something that has to be earned through actions, not words, over a serious period of time and is not compatible with lies, deception, or being misled by not knowing or understanding relevant pertinent facts. Sometimes it just doesn't make sense to reconcile. I have a person I have forgiven but can't reconcile because I am still concerned about how they might treat some of my dependents if I had a relationship with them again.

Leaving oneself open for injury is generally a bad and some might say stupid thing to do. You can forgive a snake for biting you, because they were just doing what snakes do, but to give the snake an opportunity to bite you again under similar circumstances would be foolish unless you knew that the snake had been de-fanged or otherwise controlled.

I want..

I want to tell you how special you are,

to put down in words my love for you,

my desire to care for you.

I want to say how much you mean to me,

that you are the centre of my universe

and that your smile lights up my life.

I want to tell you that when I see you unhappy,

I want to hold you.

I want to tell you that sometimes you look so god damn wonderful

I want time to stand still to capture your beauty.

I am lost in the depth of your eyes,

the curved lift of your smile, your lovely naughty laugh,

I want to tell you that the gentle warmth of your embrace has given me more joy than I ever thought possible.

10 kelakuan pengkhianat

1. Menutupi kesalahan dengan sempurna

2. Memutarbalikkan fakta

3. Meyakinkan orang lain dengan perkataannya yang

meyakinkan

4. Menutupi fakta dengan fakta palsu

5. Meyakinkan lingkungan dengan sikap berdiam diri

6. Merahasiakan hubungan di balik hubungan

7. Melupakan semua janji yang telah diucapkan

8. Melarikan diri bersama sikap egois

9. Mengkondisikan bahwa dialah sang korban

10. Merasa bahwa waktu akan menghapus semua kesalahan cepat atau lambat

101010

said on 101010

will be answered on 20102010

:)

touchable predictable

apa yang dulu tak tersentuh

bahkan kini telah dapat dipeluk

yang dulu enggan menyapa

sekarang teman bertukar pikiran

yang dulu menjadi bagian imajinasi

kini menjadi kenyataan yang menyapa tiap hari

dulu ada yang memimpikannya

dulu ada yang berandai bersamanya

dulu ada yang ingin memiliki dirinya

dulu ada yang ingin menjadi bagian hidupnya

perlahan menaruh cengkeraman

di atas ranting pohon yang rapuh

siap menangkap buah yang siap dipetik itu

kini apel itu di genggamannya

tercium wanginya

manisnya begitu terasa

waktu memang akan menjawab semuanya

ditemani baik iblis ataupun malaikat

mengikuti hati maupun nafsu

teringat sahabat ataupun kepuasan diri sendiri

begitu dapat disentuh

begitu dapat diperkirakan.

Broken Vow

Tell me her name i want to know

The way she looks and where you go

I need to see her face

I need to understand

Why you and i came to the end

Tell me again i want to hear

Who broke my faith in all these years

Who lays with you at night

when i'm here all alone

Remembering when i was your own

I let you go

I let you fly

Why do i keep on asking why

I let you go

Now that i found

a way to keep somehow

more then a broken vow

Tell me the words i never said

Show me the tears you never shed

Give me the touch

that one, you promised to be mine

or has it vanished for all the time

I close my eyes

and dream of you and i

and then i realize

There's more to love than

only bitterness and lies

I'd give away my soul to hold you once again

and never let this promise end

I let you go

I let you fly

Now that i know i'm asking why

Now that i find

a way to keep somehow

more than a broken vow

a broken vow

antrian ATM

memang blog ini bukan diary gw.

tapi kejadian tadi siang membuat gw berpikir.

mungkin terdengar biasa aja, tapi bagi gw omongan anak dan ibunya tadi bikin gw mikir

"what? anaknya aja nyadar dan ngeh." ckckck.

(antrian sebuah ATM Bank Capek Antri dan gw kebetulan persis di belakang mereka.)

anak 5 th: ma, aku laper.

mama: iya bentar ah. bawel.

(ibu itu mulai sibuk dengan proses pengambilan uang di ATMnya.)

(lama banget)

(anak 5 th itu mulai menarik-narik baju ibunya tak sabar.)

anak: ma.. ma..

mama: apa??

anak: mama kok ambil uang terus sih?

mama: mau belanja.

anak: aku mau nabung.

deg!